juz wanna said

tired...sick of it...cant handle it...

i hate u..

2 days before move away!~

tired : coz basuh n sental bj owg yg sgt pnuh ngn kesabaran(bau n kotor gle)
bored : after kmas n packing everything, xtaw nk wat pe da...(walhal, isnin t de test...)
hepy : sbb dpt settle kn keje2 yg te tanggunh jep...(seyez xde mood nk wat pape b4 dis)
sdiy : miss old's,nurul husna bte abdul aziz
hahahhahahahha....perasaan n perangai pelik...

 7 the things im trying to change and fixed it as my truth.

1. i wanna be a good girl to my mum n dad (call them every 2 days...eventhought i will homesick later)
2. i wanna focus on stdy(how hard to make it, i have to do that)
3. i wanna come back to the path (tired to be bad girl)
4. think twice in every single thing i do
5. i really wanna be a good fwen to u guys xpesially to my bff ( wont refuse them to choose what the best for their life)
6.i wanna anyone who stiil appreciates me, does not feel frustrated when i get to know

and last but not least, 
7.  i wont love any guy xcept, he really want me (i wanna keep a few feeling that still have for my future husband)

p/s : ya allah, plez help me... n guys...plez help me...

fall in love wif this word..

love is always patient and kind. it is never jealous. love is never boastful or conceited. it is never rude and selfish. it does not take offense and is not resentful


p/s : miss u a lot!~

my angel

slmat ari ibu, wahai bonda ku....miss u so much...luse angah blik...i wanna cook something for u..XOXO

fucking day

sowi...not in the mood nk stdy....

+ bile tgk muke owg tu, ag2 ar meluat....

stop making pity face infront of me....

lupe lak nk cte psl some one yg special jgak dlm life aq now...

ruzen n ayu..=)

mybuddie

my life n my soul at uitm...

now, let me knal kan kowg my new soulmate beside opie....

ni ruzen, aq ny bff...(abu n ali aka kami the movie)perasan gle...hahah

ni ar dd n man...another bff sy...(sofie n lyn)...de ag  sowg nme ny alip(adi)...but dye ny pic xkat sni..(dye ni pemalu skit)

pape pn syg kowg 4 owg...hope kte bff for eva n eva....XOXO

haha!~

mlm yg indah ag menenangkan...dont know y, te tbe de rse sebak dlm ati...mybe ni ar dri aq yg sbnr setelah beberape ari acik te rse nk nanges but aq tahankan je coz nk jge ati sume pihak...

nex month, aq kne msok bilik bedah for the forth time...huh!..even surgent kcik je but im still scare...sjak beberape taon ni, aq cik kua msok ospital...sdiy sgt tgk ibu ngn ayh kne abis kn duit tuk rawat aq+ kne korban kn mse tuk lyn kerenah aq mse ngh saket ni...sdiy sgt...aq byk kecewe kn diowg...even dr segi stdy+attitude...dont know y...aq sdiy sgt coz xdpt bg diowg hepy slame aq idop ni...aq harap sgt aq ley score exm dis sem... hope ngn care ni, ibu n ayah hepy kjap n rse xnyesal sbb lahir kn aq kat muke bumi ni...

dr segi friendship, aq xtaw pe yg aq rse skrng...nta...bile aq wat ek, owg xpna perasan....bile nk wat jhat, sume owg nmpk jer...ahhaha...pnat ar...aq sdar aq ni hodoh+sombong+jhat...but im a human being...i need space to be social n live..even u like it or not, dis is me...n for those yg pna te rse ati ngn aq or saket kn ati aq, im so sowi for everything...im juz being myself...hepy coz pna jd kwn kowg..mybe bkn mse ny tuk kte still be kwn...bior mse yg tentu kn everything...pape pn im so sowi coz xjd kwn yg bek tuk kowg...

last but not least...ya allah..aq byk sgt wat dose...im too tired wif my life...i know only u can help me to release all the things make me feel bad...byk sgt jln buntu kat dpn aq ni...which one should i choose?i miss mekah, i miss all the memories at that time...i wanna be that person again...but how?emmmmm....

stdy week

now da stdy week....so kne stdy btol2 ye nurul husna...ahahhah
im hepy coz dpt jgak blik uma ri tu(lepas wndu tahap karma)..
tq ibu coz lyn gle ar kat uma ari tu...love u,XOXOXO....
wish me gud lux guys....
ayu , ruzen n me (4.0 dis sem..ok?)

~STORY OF MY LIFE

hye honey...lme aq xupdate ko kn...so sowi...act im not in the mood now...alot of pressure comes around + kesihatan aq pn xbape nk btol now...n most thing yg pling menggangu pikiran now is I MISS MY PARENT..


im so boring wif all this situation now...n im too tired to face anyting...i think im in love wif one guy...but my BFF like like that guy...so i have to step back from now on...truly sometime i feel like jealous at her if she near to that guy...but dont know...i still in +ve thinking to remind myself that she my BFF...i cant stab behind her back...i need her more than that guy...so, NURUL HUSNA BINTI ABDUL AZIZ...juz forget it...


now, i juz need my parents to much....ayah...ibu...blik ar...im to tired to face all this stupid things....plezz come home...

~pose time...chaiyok2 to me n ruzen(my bes buddies eva)..=)

stay by jay sean~

You said it once,
Said it twice,
That it hurts but I do it again
I don't change, I don't't learn, cause I can't let it in
Said it's gone, let it be, 'cause you don't need a friend
Baby I do,
I pull on you, pushin' me cry
To be laughing and I
Promise you, you promise me backin and why
Does it all fall apart in just a matter of time...

So I'm thinking maybe
You've made up your mind
'Cause you're distort (distort)
And I can't stand to fight no more
So please don't make me hurt you like I do
I don't really trust myself truly,
Eventhough I hear you sayin' baby no, no
(no, no, nonono, nono)
I can't take no more of this and
I'm knock, knock, knockin' on the outdoor
Askin' if you still let me in
Won't you stay (ay, ay, ay, ay, baby... ay, ay, ay, ay... ay, ay, ay, ay...)
Won't you stay?

Memories lookin fun that we had on photographs in the wall
Now I can't make you smile or hear you laugh anymore
And I can't help or ask, that's the point of it all
Tell me Baby,
Call it love, call it blame, call it joy, call it pain
But I found, call it girl what you made is as painful as hell
To be here while you're there don't need nobody else...

So I'm thinking maybe
You've made up your mind
'Cause you're distort (distort)
And I can't stand to fight no more
So please don't make me hurt you like I do
I don't really trust myself truly,
Eventhough you're tellin' me
(no, no, nonono, nono)
I can't take no more of this and
I'm knock, knock, knockin' on the outdoor
Askin' if you still let me in
Won't you stay (ay, ay, ay, ay, baby... ay, ay, ay, ay... ay, ay, ay, ay...)
Won't you stay?

If it's all meant for me?
And if I'm so meant for you?
Why does this have to be so hard on both of us two?
If it's all meant for me?
And if I'm so meant for you?
Why does this have to be so hard on both of us two?

Still you're sayin' no, no (no, no, nonono, nono)
I can't take no more of this and
I'm knock, knock, knockin' on the outdoor
Asking if you still let me in
Won't you stay (ay, ay, ay, ay, baby... ay, ay, ay, ay... ay, ay, ay, ay...)
Won't you stay?
Won't you stay (ay, ay, ay, ay, baby... ay, ay, ay, ay... ay, ay, ay, ay...)
Won't you stay?

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmania.com/stay_lyrics_jay_sean.html
All about Jay Sean: http://www.musictory.com/music/Jay+Sean

~stay

wish: could dance like her again...emmmm..='(

wndu time g umrah dlu...bes oliday eva...

ske pic ni

feel cam bebas sgt ngok pic ni..

~ni je dlm pale now

ni ngh tension ngadap heat transfer....

~tlong jgn wat sy serbe sala

today, aq sdiy sgt...emmm...nta ar...sowg2 wat hal...dat guy dtg blik...sbb fmly dye xrestu hbgn dye n awek dye...fmly dye ske sgt kat aq..walhal br 2 kali aq jejak kaki kat uma tu...emmm...nta ar...aq juz nk wat bek kat fmly dye coz dye br lpas kehilangan mak te cinte...aq xsmpi ati nk ngok dye sdiy...even thought he juz my skandal...tp nta ar, aq xnk dye now or lpas ni...sbb aq hormat hbgan dye n awek dye...aq xnk kecewa kn ati pmpn len...in the same time aq serbe sala ngn fmly dye...i juz cant...he can only be my BFF from now on...

kalo ar blog ni, fmly dye bce kan bgos...aq nk sgt ckp, juz gve dat girl chance...bdak pmpn tu bdak ag...mybe xmature ag...so juz gve her time..mybe after dis dye ley wat pe yg ptot...sy xperfect or ley puas kan ati sume owg pn...mybe nmpk sy ley wat be gaul ngn owg tue n reti skit2 wat keje,...but act tu sume pengalaman yg nnek bg kat sy...sy byk mmbesar ngn nnek,,.,..thats y, sy ley time culture tu...pe jalanan idop kte pnjang ag, so juz gve dat girl chance...sy xnk jd perampas pd sape2 pn...tlong ar...=)

~complicated~

pepatah: yg d kejar xdapat, yg di kendong beciciran....

hahaah...lawak ar now...owg yg aq ske sume xske aq...OH MY GOD3(versi meon).......n yg ske kat aq sume yg aq anggap as fwen je...hahahah...cmne ni...aq xnk reject owg, in de same time aq xnk kne reject...aishhh...cmne ni...sowie...guys...aq nk stdy sgt2...even aq ske kat dat guy, tp aq kne taman kn dlm2 perasaan tu...coz aq ag ske stdy...bkn jual mahal, tp blom sdie nk d kecewa kn kali ke berape nta...ahahhaa...sape2 yg aq te lyn lbh2 tu act aq men2 je...coz aq cume ske one guy je now...owg tu 1 of my bff...n dat feeling bior ar rhsie...

='(

takziah to dd...feel sad to u...n truly xpna ngok ko se terok tu...emmmmm....jgn sdiy ye....aq, ruzen, man n alip slalo je ade tuk ko....fwen for eva...

bile kenang kn nseb dye td, te igt lak nseb aq t cmne nta...emmmm....ibu ayah...miss u guys damnly....

~mlm yg complicated

wndu uma....nk blik...ibu ayah...jgn ar pegi africa...angah wndu sume owg...dtg ar cni...emmmm

~searching for mr doraemon~

mr doraemon?
kateria>>

~hepy
~honest
~funny guy
~genius(in many way)
~always on my side( memahami pe yg aq nk n xmgonkong)
~know how to make me smile
~most wanted>>xtggal solat

ahhahah...pe aq merepek kat atas tu....act still looking for MR DORAEMON sy...sy da jmpe dye, but ssh sgt nk dekat ngn dye...abeed n ruzen, tlong support sy...tlong igt kan sy suh blaja n blaja...sy xnk feeling2 t sy xfocus stdy da...emmm...

~someone stalking me????~

cam pelik je kan tajok tu...ahahhah....tp seyezly de owg stalking me but it was girl...no~ im not lesbio ok...jgn pkir2 len yek...hahahha

truly, aq agk de mslh ngn sowg minah ni...sbb she's too SELFISH...sy xske owg cmtu ok...so, i juz remove dye dr FB n all connection between us...so, our status juz tggal as room8 je...ahhaha...kejam kn aq...but i ske pe yg i da wat tu...its better...at least aq xyah tgk dye ny story yg pnoh ngn pretending dlm bnde yg aq slalo bukak...ahhahha....yg pling aq te kejot sgt, dye ngadu kat our housemate psl aq remove dye...this situation makes me wonder, how did shes now if i removed her...there are no notification showed any sign...truly shes STALKING MY PAGE...my god...seyez menakot kn...wow...!~

actually bkn dye sowg i pna remove...aq juz nk be myself...n i xnk pretanding pn sape2 ag...if xske tros ckp xske...coz after dat xyah nk serabot2 kan pale pkir psl depa...ahhahha....sy JAHAT?sy mmg jahat...so what?do i look like i care bout others feeling...now what i most care juz bout my fmly, my BFF,my truly fwen(someone dont pretending) n my clazmate ONLY...so xyah nk menyemak ar ur feeling kat idop aq...sgt2 menyemak...

~aq benci ko, MISS SELFISH~

bnde yg pling aq benci wat dlm idop ni >>>> pretending...xske sgt2...n for sure ar sape2 pn xske kn...from now on, aq juz nk jd dri sndri n be myself...xkesa ar pe owg nk ckp kat aq...ske ati ar...this is true me...as long as aq xberzina n malu kat fmly aq, its up to me...

now, sume bnde nk pretending...pnat ar...pe kate juz direct je kalo wat pape...kn ag snang,bkn ssh pn...kalo aq de wat sala, juz tegor je...bkn ssh sgt pn...

~hepy day~

ari aq blik uma 6.30 pg...dlm keadaan ter ketar-ketar kesejukan+keletihan coz da 2 arri xtdo......rse cam duk kai igloo pn de gak...sume ni gare2 sowg housemate aq yg pling2 'bek'..sb dye nk tdo sgt, aq te pkse stdy kat lua...menyampah tgk muke dye lme..(da stop talking bout her,angah...wat rosak mood yg de je t)....


smpi2 uma, solat n tros tdo...target kne gon awl, koz de claz kul 2-4ptg...pnye ar smgat bgon kul 10...tggu ny tggu, kimo tex me..(claz fluid xde ari ni...so kowg ley smbung tdo)...heppy gle aq coz xde claz which mean claz ari ni free...ok!~


so aq nk wat target br...(ruzen n kwn2 >>>>jom g tgk wyg...)huhu...=)

ari yg pling worst~

bln feb, bln yag pling aq saket ati...ngn claz bertindih2...cam sial pn de gak...ngn kwn2 cam peragai pelik2...sume nk emo...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaa....tension taw x...xyah nk serabot kn pale aq ag...now br nk mule bln br,thought ley ar release kn tension yg de...but keep saket kn ati..geram sgt....life totaly getting complicated...de setgh owg, kalo nk kawan pn xikhlas...

huhu....tp lucky gak coz de owg yg paham aq...huhu!~ syg kak ella, kak aina, alin n ruzen....(kowg ptot bangge aq sebut nme kowg).....hhuhuhuhu....hope kowg de kat blkang angah...=) 

love dis song damnly~

I know you're somewhere out 

there

Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back

My neighbors think I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

At night when the stars
Light on my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the moon, tryin' to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too
Oh, am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say I've gone mad
Yeah, I've gone mad

But they don't know what I know
'Cause when the sun goes down
Someone's talking back
Yeah, they're talking back

At night when the stars
Light on my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the moon, tryin' to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too
Oh, am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon
Do you ever hear me calling?
'Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon, still tryin' to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too
Oh, am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away

muhasabah dri!~

"Jangan engkau kahwini wanita yang enam; yang ananah, yang mananah, dan yang hananah, dan jangan engkau kahwini yang hadaqah, yang baraqah dan yang syadaqah." - Imam Al-Ghazali

Wanita Ananah:

Wanita yang banyak mengeluh dan mengadu dan tiap saat memperalatkan sakit atau berpura-pura sakit.

Wanita Mananah:

Wanita yang suka mengungkit-ngungkit terhadap suaminya. Wanita ini sering menyatakan seperti; "Aku membuat itu keranamu"

Wanita Hananah:

Wanita yang menyatakan kasih sayangnya kepada suaminya yang lain, yang dikahwininya sebelum ini atau kepada anaknya dari suami yang lain.

Wanita Hadaqah:

Wanita yang melemparkan pandangan dan matanya pada tiap sesuatu, lalu menyatakan keinginannya untuk memiliki barang itu dan memaksa suaminya untuk membelinya.

Wanita Baraqah:

1) Wanita yang sepanjang hari mengilatkan dan menghias mukanya.
2) Wanita yang marah ketika makan dan tidak mahu makan kecuali sendirian dan diasingkannya bahagianya.

Wanita Syadaqah:

Wanita yang banyak bercakap perkara yang lagha (sia-sia) dan lagi membisingkan.

now,kte muhasabah dri kte sndri...kat mne letak ny dri kte..so fikir2 kn ar sndri...(even aq pn ngh fikir2 kn..)...time to change!~

~owg da be jaye,slalo ny akan berubah~

cam poyo je kn ayat tu...act kdg2 bnde tu agk btol gak...sbb people will change bile da dpt pe yg diowg idam kn...sme ade dr segi kebaikan or sebalik ny...kalo dr segi kebaikan, aq as mmbe sgt2 ar hepy for them...but kalo se bek ny,aq sediy sgt...coz most of mse aq mmg byk kat mmbe2...bile time cuti je mse aq sume kat fmly...sbb tu kdg2 aq lbh kn fmly compare then to mmbe...ni sume gare2 byk sgt kenangan pahit bile knang kn nme kwn...

kerna kenangkn kwn ar, aq kdg2 da fobia nk be kwn sgt...better duk snyap2 kat tmpt yg aq de now... sbb kenangkn mmbe ar, aq hampir ilang saba ngn dye...dlu dye janji kn mcm2, tp bile da be jaye..aq dye lupe kn cam sampah jep...bg aq, nothing da between us...kerna syg sgt, aq saba je tiap pe yg dye xdpt tunai kan...aq hope one day,dye ley pkir2 sndri pe yg dye da wat kat aq now...n dye xkan wat bnde yg sme kat owg len...

from now on, aq agk kureng be perasaan nk de feeling ag...heartless sgt...bkn xnk time pape now, cume luke yg de ni too deep..n i need time to think properly for my future...so lpas ni bile i da sdie, br nk pkir sume ni...

Lilypie Development: PitaPata: Weeks and days

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new lesson for myself..

now br aq taw...rupe2 ny aq lahai pd 9 rabiulawal 1412...huhu...jhail sgt...n sifat2 owg lahir pd bulan tu pn aq taw...ptot ar ustad mak aq ckp aq owg ny degil...hahaha...sume yg dye ckp,btol kot...ahhaha...sungguh malu d ctu...tp xpe...time to change angah...ag pn today aq da blaja 1 lesson yg kalo kte wat bek ngn owg len, xsemesti ny owg tu balas bnde yg bek pd kte...so u have to be selfish skit kadang2....br owg akn respect ko blik...so kwn2 jgn mudah te pedaya ngn muke kesian sume owg...sbb blom tentu owg tu akan bebaik ngn kte...so jge2 yek...

Muharram
Bersifat pendiam, sihat fikirannya. Mungkin akan
menjadi bodoh jika tidak mendapat didikan yang
sempurna, walaupun begitu, jika dididik dengan
baik, dia boleh menjadi cerdik kerana bakat fikiran
yang pintar cerdas ada padanya. Dia mempunyai
keinginan yang baik dan selalu berada dalam
selamat..


Safar
Tabiatnya buruk. Dia tidak suka mengakui
kesalahannya. lbubapanya perlu mendidiknya bagi
menghilangkan tabiat buruk itu, jika tidak,
kehidupannya akan menjadi susah di kemudian
hari. Walaupun begitu, sekiranya dia melakukan
sesuatu untuk kepentingan dirinya, selalunya ianya
akan mendatangkan hasil.


Rabiul Awal
Perwatakannya baik. Mungkin dia akan mendapat
pangkat besar, menjadi orang berpengaruh atau
kaya tanpa diduga. Dalam pekerjaan ramai yang
suka. Sifat
negatif dirinya termasuklah kurang sabar, hatinya
keras dan mudah marah.


Rabiul Akhir
Perwatakannya jahat. Hatinya tidak tetap. Fikiran
dan kemahuannya lemah, buruk nafsunya, kasar
wataknya, mudah mengangkat tangannya.
Kehidupannya menjadi sukar kerana tabiat
buruknya itu. Ibubapa menempuh
kesukaran dalam mendidiknya..

Jamadil Awal
Dia mempunyai tingkat keyakinan yang tinggi. Dia
berani dan nekad, kadangkala melakukan sesuatu
yang bodoh atau bahaya. Walaupun begitu,
keberanian dan tekadnya itu akan menunjukkan
hasil usahanya, yang menemui kegagalan juga.


Jamadil Akhir
Wataknya berani, dia hormatkan orang lain.
Berbagai kepandaian ada padanya. Apabila dia
tahu bahawa dia salah atau keliru maka dia mudah
mengakuinya,
tapi bila dia tahu dia benar, pendiriannnya keras
dan tidakmahu mengalah. Semasa kecilnya,
ibubapanya perlu mendidiknya dengan baik agar
terserlah sifat-sifatnya yang baik itu, kerana jika
betul didikannya, masa dewasa ia akan
menyenangkan kedua orang tuanya.

Rejab
Semasa kecilnya dia degil dan nakal. lbu bapanya
patut mendidiknya dengan baik agar dia dapat
menerapkan nilai-nilai yang baik. Ketika sudah
dewasa, dia suka bersikap merendah diri dan
bersikap tidak tahu menahu. Ini agak berlainan dari
sikapnya semasa kecil. Walaubagaimanapun
hidupnya selamat dan sentosa.



Sya’aban
Perwatakannya baik. Hidupnya selamat dan
rezekinya tidak putus-putus. Sewaktu kecilnya dia
mudah mengalah semasa bermain dengan kawan-
kawan. Kelakuannya baik, berbudi bahasa hingga
semua orang sayang padanya. Masa
dewasanya dia akan berjaya dalam segala
kerjayanya danmudah mendapat rezeki.

Syawal
Perwatakannya keras. Hatinya keras. Dia tidak
suka dikalahkan oleh orang lain. Hal ini
membahayakan hidupnya, oleh itu ibu bapanya
perlulah mendidiknya dengan betul bagi
menghilangkan tabiat buruknya itu. Jika tidak
kehidupannya menjadi susah kerana perangai
keras hatinya, dan dia selalu bergaduh
terutamanya dalam hal mencari rezeki.


Zulkaedah
Perwatakannya pendiam. Banyak perkara baik
pada dirinya berubah menjadi buruk. Dia banyak
berfikir, kerana sifat ini, satu hari nanti dia akan
mendapat hasil yang baik dalam kehidupannya.
Tetapi oleh kerana banyak berfikir, perbuatannya
kadang kala menjadi keliru. Dia seharusnya
bertindak tanpa terlalu
banyak berfikir untuk mendapat hasil yang yang
memuaskan.


Zulhijjah
Jika dia jahat dia terlalu jahat, jika baik terlalu baik
pula. Dia sering mendapat padah dari
perbuatannya sendiri. Dia sukar mengawal
perasaannya, kadangkala terlalu berlebih-lebihan
atau sebaliknya. 0leh kerana dia tidak dapat
memberikan garis pemisah, dia sukar
mempertimbangkan baik buruk perbuatannya. Dia
seringkali menyesal kerana kurang hati-hati dan
kurang pertimbangan.

something knock my head

Renungkan : 
**Mempunyai satu sahabat sejati lebih berharga dari 
seribu teman yang mementingkan diri sendiri 
"Dalam masa kejayaan, teman2 mengenal kita. 
Dalam kesengsaraan, kita mengenal teman2 kita."** 


mse yg paling ley kte knal kwn wish means true frens mse kte btol2 ssh...bnde tu aq sndri alami time mse aq saket, time aq ngh frust n most of time aq ngh depress..people change totaly at that time...without a sign..


kdg2 aq ske wat perumpamaan cmni..' Let’s assume friendship is like a burger meal, and the fries are like the side order, you can take them or leave them. Friends with fries are friends who skip the main meal, but like to snack on the side.'

tp de mse because of someone their love, friendship will mean nothing for them..its happen to me couple of time..i hated that kind of person truly..

ingatlah bile terakhir kali anda berada dalam kesulitan.
Siapa yang berada di samping anda ??
Siapa yang mengasihi anda saat anda merasa tidak dicintai??
Siapa yang menjadi teman untuk urusan rahsia Anda,
diwaktu ada masalah dengan keluarga anda.??
Siapa yang ingin bersama anda pada saat tiada satupun
yang dapat anda berikan ??
Merekalah sahabat2 anda.
Hargai dan peliharalah selalu persahabatan anda dengan
mereka. 

~bgon2 te igt~

What should i do?

Emmmm...cam poyo je kn bunyi ny...hee~

Life so complicated...truly missing u damnly...even ati aq slalo beubah2 ske kat owg...but xsngke jao kat sudut ati aq, aq ske gle kat ko...mule2 aq rse aq ske ko xikhlas sbb ko pndai n future ko sgt cerah...aq admit tu...but now in the same time aq  da start xley lupekn ko...y? aq xrse bnde ni mksud ny cinta...sbb cinta bkn untuk dimiliki but tuk d sygi...i think ni kot perasaan mr x kat aq dlu...emmm...pape pn aq still konfius ngn perasaan aq....nk xnk aq kne lepaskn ko gak one day...even hard tuk aq time but aq kn cube gak...but not in this moment...i still need u coz idop aq kian kosong tnpe ko...aq sdiy sgt ko bior kn aq cmni...aq xpnah rse camni...even adib pna saket kn ati aq but ko ny act ag saket...nape mst tggal kn aq tnpe kate...kalo xske nape xckp jep...nape mst  wat cmni...rse aq ag bodo dr owg yg bodo...aq sedar aq xseperfect ms h, xsecantik ms h but aq pn de perasaan...mungkin ko balas dendam sbb aq ar reason ko n that girl clash kn...aq mintak maaf sgt2...aq xbemaksud pn nk wat cmtu...aq juz tkot kehilangan kwn bek...agpn aq xd kwn mse tu...ko je nk lyn aq n wat aq hepy...im so sowi..

Every day ibu slalo tnye psl kte,aq xtaw nk jwb pe...janji ko nk jmpe parent aq b4 ko fly,ko xtunai pn...mungkin tu jwpn bg soalan yg ko slalo biar kn aq te kapai2 ea...ko mmg nk akhirkn hubungan ni kn...ok fine...pd detik ko fly,aq lepaskan ko wat slame ny...so, mulai now jgn bg aq pape harapan ag...aq da penat sgt ngn perasaan ni....aq bkn han or sape2 yg snggup tggu bnde yg xpasti walaupn aq deeply syg n ske kat ko...hati aq sgt2 saket now...telalu sgt man....aq tulis sume ni sbb aq da xtahan ngn sume bnde yg belaku now...aq da mule xiklas ngn hbgn kte b4 dis...b4 perasaan tu mkin merebak bek aq blaja lepaskn ko slow2 now...but i will tell u dis feeling sehari b4 ko pegi sbb after that ko xkn jmpe aq lagi...aq pn akn pegi jao dr idop that school.....anggap je ko pna knal aq but jgn pena igt aq or dtg kat aq even nk jd kwn aq ag...plez.......

After aq lepaskn ko ni, aq xtaw pe perasaan aq...even de owg nk jodoh kn aq ngn owg len,aq xtaw aq ikhlas ngn owg tu...sbb aq tkot d tinggal kn cmni...what should i do aiman...

Wish te akhir aq

1.       Aq nk tgk ko fly

2.       Aq akn lafaz kn ayt tu b4 ko pegi

3.       Jgn crik aq after dis.

4.       Moga: abg kne tlong adk crik maklumat aiman(bile dye fly n num fon dye)